This year, my writing will be different than my previous years, I felt it the moment I saw this quote. A calm entered me as there were so many questions in my mind about why I write. I used to wonder that I am not doing anything different from the rest of the world and we all have same lives. I also had a lot of my presumptions about why I write, why should I write and what writing does to me.

Joan’s quote hit me hard. I don’t write because I want others to appreciate me or praise me. I just share the reflections of my mind in this space. This is my space where I listen to myself. An understanding of myself, my life and everything around me starts here.

There are so many moments in my life where I have felt alone. This space has been my truest companion. During those moments, I did not once think who will read what I write or how many comments I will get on my blog. To be honest, during those moments, I only felt the need to share my thoughts, to understand them, to reflect upon it.

While I landed on Social Media, a lot changed. I wanted to promote my blog, wanted more readers, wanted to be a prime writer, but nothing materialized. I spent a crucial amount out of my pocket to just make it shine. Today I am glad it did not work.

Even though I had so much to write about, I had to think a lot before I put it down in this space. Will my post be on the first page on Google, what about my SEO? What topic will help me get more views? Gradually, I lost the interest to write what I wanted to. I always felt that I was missing something crucial. Maybe I did spend enough time on the blog everyday, maybe I am not working on my writing skills, maybe I am not good enough.

The comparison, the feel to do more because others were doing a lot was really burning me out. I wasn’t understanding my own space. I didn’t once wanted to stop and take a reality check of myself and my life. Since I couldn’t accept my reality, I tried competing with it to prove it wrong.

When I started this blog, I never thought once before writing something. I never had an audience. Not that I do now, but I am not worried anymore. The truth lies in my experiences, in sharing them in the space which is special to me. If that helps someone, then I am happy. If not, still, it helps me go through my own experiences.

Writing has made me accept my imperfect self. The failures, the pain, the arrogance, the stupidity, the silliness, and craziness – just the way it is. How incapable I am in a few things to how I have managed to learn a few things, it has helped me view me just like that.

When I read my older posts, there is so much about myself and my life that I am thankful for today. Nothing has given me this level of joy than the chance to go back and cherish the memories of yesterday. The good, bad and the ugly – every one of it.

When this constant question of “what I wish I could have changed in my life?” pops up, I see how each and every incident in my life has changed me and made me who I am today. So, this put off the regret and makes me feel peaceful.

I used to hold so many fears, they did not vanish overnight. Writing has helped me heal in many ways, it still continues to do and will forever help me. It helps me evaluate so many rights and wrongs in my life. There will be so many changes in my life today and in the coming years, but I will have this forever friend who will guide me through all of it.

Writing has given me peace, it has made me express my anger, it has made me let go of hatred, forgive myself, forgive others, understand myself and others, so much more. 2022 will be a year in which my writing will mean so much to me.

Here’s me wishing you all a Happy New Year and a wonderful year of writing!

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Music has a special place in our hearts. We have that special list of songs for all moods as well as mood swings. Either we dance to the tune we hear on a radio or for the tune inside our heads. At times, there’s some random song stuck on your head and keeps repeating itself ‘n’ times like a stuck tape recorder. Neither does it relate to the situation nor is it your favorite. It is just there the whole day or few hours and goes away!!

Personally, I love peppy ones. It does not just uplift me, it has changed many glum days into good mood days! It is also a stress buster. The best part about this variety is most are meaningless and kick-ass songs that makes us get up and shake our limbs. Like Aaluma Doluma!

There was one particular song that my sister and I kept as an alarm tone and also listened to it every morning religiously. We wake up dancing, sometimes even with our eyes closed. This song was our morning motivation! It is not just good to listen, but also a visual treat! It’s also the first five songs that I saw in my New Moto to check the quality of speakers and visual display. I am sure you will enjoy it too. Its Kattikida from Kaaki Sattai.

There is one thing about Westlife that I adore. These guys set the standards for me about Love, and they set it high! Look at each one of them, their voice and their looks are enough to fall in Love with them. They were my teen love and it still continues! Just look at them. I love every album of theirs. Coast to Coast is a personal favorite. If it’s them, I will stay glued to the TV too. I remember watching their documentary and also crying when Brian McFadden left. *Heartbreak*

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A thing of beauty is a joy forever – John Keats

We become what we always wanted to become.

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A recent incident made me understand this quote in a better way! 

As I walked back from a nearby grocer’s shop, I saw a man parking his car a little before my house. He reversed the car and parked it right in front of my house. I knocked the door like a warning and went forward and told him to park it in the parking space just a few meters behind. 

The reply came immediately. “I will move the car after I finish the work at the xerox shop. It would not take me even a few minutes.”

I replied, “I am waiting for a bike to come now. Please move it!” My reply wasn’t strong though!

His another excuse was,”Just a little time! Very less indeed!”

The frustration in my expressions was visible now. I just told, “What’s the use of keeping a board outside? Don’t you guys ever read?”

The kid next to him looked at me and I didn’t want to create a scene there.

I just walked in without waiting to listen to any other words. 

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I was thinking about this incident in the evening when I was preparing for CSE exams. I asked myself, 

Why were my words not effective in this particular incident?

I was not ready to tell him the harsh truth. I controlled myself from exploding even though I knew what I was about to tell was right.

What were the words I really wanted to say?

I really wanted to say, 

“Sir, Do you see the board,”No Parking in front of the gate?” It’s there for a reason“

“Move it back, You are setting a bad example for your kid without being aware of it.”

“Why are you giving an excuse when all you need to do is move the car back by just 20 meters”

“Sir, All you need to do is listen to what I am saying first before giving your excuse!”

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I realized the change I need to see in me. I have just started my preparation for one of the toughest examinations in India, but I love the first impact it has stirred in me.

There is one famous dialogue that I remember at this moment,

“Bad guys aren’t worried about doing mistakes, but good people worry so much to face the fury after doing good deeds.”

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Till date, I only regret the moments where I have oppressed my thoughts and feelings. Not once do I regret the moments where I have been open and clear about my choices even if I was the only one who believed it. 

Finally, Isn’t standing up for myself and my beliefs is the first change that Gandhi had mentioned in that quote in a beautiful way?

This quote confirmed my belief!

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What’s the change that you are willing to see in you?

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On the very first day, I felt like all the 24-hours were mine and only mine!
Excited for a week,
I got back all my sleep.
I did not know where I was going,
But that’s what kept me moving.

I turned to my blog for solace,
I thought of it as my only marketplace.
I remembered my teammates telling,
My emails to the clients were thrilling.

My friend told me about a writing opportunity on the Internet,
It pulled me to it like a magnet!
My journey started there with a Yes,
Till now, that word does not bring a stress!

With all the time I have,
I read, I write, I drive!
Moving a step ahead,
After all the troubles have passed!

There is life after you quit your full-time job! I chose it! Read about my journey here as Part-1 and Part-2

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When it comes to working from home, my first opinion is spending an hour or two for writing everyday to keep things going for a start. I hardly find time to sit in front of the system being at home. It definitely teaches me to manage time better to do what you love, but only after doing what you should at home.

I was stuck on the very first point shared in the book ‘Who Will Cry When You Die’ by Robin Sharma. “Discover Your Calling”. I clearly had no idea what I am supposed to do here in this world. Even on reading it multiple times I couldn’t figure out what I really had to do. But there was a time I bottled up feelings and was afraid to share anything. Sadness and tears were my only companion for months together. I felt dead on the inside and soul-less on the outside thinking that was going to be my life forever. Blessed to have couple of people who helped me from staying in the pit forever.

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