Am I worried?
Am I confused?
Do I want to spend time alone?
Do I want to take a shower and go for a walk?
Thoughts clouding my mind,
I’ve got a problem to resolve!
Many people are involved and convincing all to see the point might take forever!
But I still want to try!
I was a coward before,
I chose to hide,
I chose to shut,
I chose to bottle up,
I chose to remain guilty for no reason,
I chose to blame my past actions,
I chose to call myself names.
But now i understand and am not ashamed but in the process of moving forward and choosing to live!
I was scared of everything before and still many things scare me but I choose to act now rather than sit and watch!
I cried, I hid, I shouted and I laughed but nothing seems to solve it for me!
I choose to wait and watch!
I choose to stand back and see,what really the world wants from me! And what is that I really want to give to the world!
I have realized shouting doesn’t work,
I have realized blaming doesn’t work,
I have realized hiding doesn’t work,
I have chosen to pay attention to know and realize what works!
I have a life ahead, I can’t let any negativity stop me!
I am afraid that if I don’t accomplish my goals I’ll become a complaining person or a parent who would want her kids to accomplish her goals!
I choose not to force or demand,
But to do what I want to really do!
I chose to live my dreams even if I am the only one who has belief in it now!
P.S: A sulky mood I wonder! It’s out and I have to move again!