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Stereotyped! #MyfriendAlexa

Jayanthy Govindarajan — Sun, 09 Sep 2018 04:00:00 +0000

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I never really knew,

We had to cut through,

To know where we stand,

When it doesn’t even look very grand,

As a girl child,

I am always expected to reconcile.

Maybe I lived in a dream,

Without knowing everything was a scheme,

When I became a graduate,

I never knew I was a marriage bait,

When I started working,

I never knew it was just to save for my wedding!

I had dreams aplenty,

Until my twenties,

I rebelled for a long time,

I was treated like I committed a crime,

All that I need,

Is to dream again and sow the seeds.

I must admit,

That I was never unfit,

But made to feel that way,

So I will never have a say,

I am here to have a go at it,

And preach to others not to fall into that pit.

We the women,

Are here to stay,

Let our barriers break away,

It is our time anyway,

Let us teach our little girls to dream,

And believe they are always supreme.

Come what may,

We must stay

With our heads held high

And not one bit shy,

For who we are,

And take pride in coming so far.

We have every right,

To question with deep sight,

A shift that brings light,

And changes our plight,

To make our future bright,

Because we are our own knight!

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Letter to My Blog #MyFriendAlexa

Jayanthy Govindarajan — Wed, 05 Sep 2018 04:00:00 +0000

Hello My Dear Blog,

I will start with a Thank You! I owe you one and I haven’t said that in years to you! I am sorry about that! Thanks to #Blogchatter for reminding me to do so. You are such a wonderful listener and you have borne me for almost a decade now. I started out writing only as a means to earn some money, but you have helped me emerge as a blogger, writer and a better reader. You have reflected my mind in every single occasion. Right from expressing my confusions as a person to an evolving parent, you have helped me express myself much better than I do in in conversations.

I have opened up very little with people in person except for few close friends. It’s you who are helping me break my barriers one at a time and you are also helping me become a better person. I used to just rant around when I started you, but you are making me focus on my writing, on myself and everything around me. You have been an amazing platform to present my writing to the entire world, something that I never thought possible. Something I never knew was possible. Something I never believed was possible. You made it all come true. I cherish every moment I type and post something in this space.

I wasn’t very sure how it would be if I self-hosted this website. I am thinking deeply about it. I would love to give you a makeover and let you breathe a little easier. Would you love a makeover? I wish you do. I really didn’t have a strategy when I first created you.(Aw, I sound like a scientist). Well, I still don’t have a great strategy, but I have a vision for you. I am working on it. I share my poems, my two cents on parenting, relationship and gratitude here. Life is kind to me in many ways and you have helped me see that in every occasion. You have changed my views on almost everything and I am glad to have an opinion about everything I see. Though I am not good enough to present my points here clearly, I know I would do it soon.

If not for you, Life would have been miserable. I wouldn’t have found a friend who listened intently and patiently as you did. I would have succumbed to tough times and would have never found my way out of them. If not for you, I wouldn’t have seen the light at the end of the tunnel. If not for you, I would have just flared up at everyone and be a snarling dragon who spit fire everywhere. I would have just existed, not lived. I am thankful, grateful and blessed for your presence in my life. You have always been better than the best of everything I ever had and you help me cherish everything I have.

I love you! I love you to the moon and back! You are my bubbly blog and you will always hold a special place in my heart ever! I am truly, madly and deeply in love with you! Nothing can change my love for you, darling!

Hugs,
Bestie!

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You are You and I am Me! #MyFriendAlexa

Jayanthy Govindarajan — Sat, 01 Sep 2018 20:51:00 +0000

Recent incidents helped me reflect a lot about myself and my life in general. Life has a way of bringing excitements and adventures followed by disappointments and regrets. Some adventures make us restless whereas some disappointments show us an open door. At times, I don’t know which is a blessing – an adventure or a disappointment. I am still not the matured one to see the light at the end of the tunnel in everything that happens. Though I believe that everything happens for a reason, sometimes I need to sit down and reflect to find the reason.

Reflections happen everywhere. Not just when I sit still and meditate, though I do it very less. Not even the times when I sit down and decide to do nothing. It mostly happens when I sit to take a breath, but someone needs my help right away that moment. It is mostly when I call it a day, but someone calls me just to see if I slept so that they could have a “short” conversation. These are the times I wonder if I have a boundary set or am I standing in an unfenced area. My writing is the best time I take to reflect on my thoughts, my mind, my self, on the day’s happenings, or even about some incident that happened some time, some day. I would love to sit down and reflect more to understand myself and many of my actions or probably, inactions.

I even wonder if people can misuse a kind person. I realized it is very well possible. It is something that happens every now and then. If my kindness to you is a fault, then there is something wrong with your thinking. It has taken me years to understand this. I have built walls and so many defense mechanisms to shield myself from being hurt, but it hasn’t helped. It has made me rude and sarcastic, it hasn’t helped me become kinder in any way. When people blindly ask me to help them with something or if I see someone need it at that moment, I oblige. That is who I am. I don’t see if I like them or not, not at that instance, of course. I just do it. If you forget me after your help, I am not at fault, neither is my behavior. You are you and I am me! We are different and I would like to accept it as it is.

Lately, many things have angered me. I have some people who hate to see me do my work. And some more who want me to do everything they say without complaining or questioning them. And, a few more would be glad if I left my book down just to speak a useless, anger-triggering conversation with them. I realized people would always have a say in everything we do. Learning to ignore is an art that I must master and above all responding in an even tone is a skill, I must acquire.

Today was one such day where I spent half my day in silence on the outside. I just took a break. If you know me, you will know that I don’t consider shopping as a break, neither do I shop till I drop, (though occasionally I drop things). I had things to buy, but never made the time to visit. I really needed some air and I wanted some cheerful colors to calm my mind. One thing I am fond of shopping is stationery. I am not tired of purchasing them. Also, I bought beautiful skirts for Ilakkiya. I will update the photo in Insta soon. Otherwise, home stuff. Those two hours weren’t actually therapeutic, but it helped me focus on better things.

I also booked tickets for the 4 of us to Kolamaavu Kokila. If you are a fan of Nayantara or Yogi Babu,(thamizh movies like this encourage me to visit theatres) you will know I am going to spend 2 hours laughing tomorrow. That is therapeutic! Well, this will also be Ilakkiya’s first movie at the theatres. So, I am keeping my fingers crossed! Also, I figured I am the only one who must do my work irrespective of any delays! No one else will or can.

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