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Made in 1987

Jayanthy Govindarajan — Mon, 18 Jun 2018 00:30:00 +0000

The last time I wrote about my birthday was before my wedding. The most cliched Last fling before the ring happened when I completed my 29 years. Earlier, I had planned entering my 30’s in a modest way. I was sure that I would be working with a “Just married” tag and go to a vacation at Goa. To keep the long story short, things were different. I landed on my 30 as a new Mom. Totally different than I ever imagined. Undoubtedly, it is one of the most special moments in my life and an unexpected one. That’s what makes my journey all the more special.

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As I stepped into 31, I took the time to thank my family for bearing with me for so long. As much as I learnt about myself in my 20’s, they learnt so much about me too. They have always known what I liked, but mid and late 20’s taught us what I don’t like as well as what I am not. I really thought of myself as a person who can manage any situation and any person. Yes, I can, with a sense of professionalism, but I learnt that is not how it works with personal relationships. It’s only in my late 20’s I learnt I have strong opinions and also stand by it. I am adamant and believe my own set of rules. I have never believed in fights and have always let things be. I always talk things through and through and through. I ask sorry if I am really wrong. I ask sorry if I hurt someone. Until my mid-20’s, I was a very loud person. Being loud was being happy and felt a joy in expressing myself better. However, I realized I used loudness to fill my emptiness. I used loudness to be heard. Funny, no? I have been very ignorant. My 20’s makes me who I am today. I failed in relationships, but also found my man in my 20’s. I am glad it all happened in my 20’s.

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I must definitely write about my 30th birthday here. This time, last year, I was a mom to a 20 day old baby girl. I was hardly able to get up from bed due to my episiotomy during delivery. I was gifted a beautiful sari by hubby, but was not in the mood to wear it though I loved the time we spent together while my parents watched over the little one. However, I managed to wear the Sari by the end of the day since my family was in all mood for a birthday bash. I felt like I need a change too. My routine feeding schedule and my sore nipples were enough to feel fatigued all day long, but today I feel those were the easiest stage of parenting. I really wanted to do something else other than following my mundane routine. My aunt and my little darling cousin had come over for the lovely day and we all celebrated a quick birthday bash while Ilakkiya was busy sleeping. I felt glad to have taken that extra effort to dress up that day. As a new mother, my priorities were to keep it as simple as possible because I didn’t want to tire myself too much during the day. Those were the days Ilakkiya slept by 3 or 4 in the mornings and most nights were extended days for me. I am surprised she is already 1 now.

I stepped into 30 with two crucial factors that affects me till date: stress and bothering too much. I have never stressed about anything in life as much as I stress or fuss about Ilakkiya’s food schedule. Similarly, I have hardly bothered about what people say about me. Now, when it comes to taking responsibility for a little one, I bother too much. Being the elder sister that I am, my sister sometimes says that I fuss too much about schedules and I am very inflexible. I am becoming very aware of these traits in me. I recently met a neighbor who told me that I look dull. I told her that I worry too much about my little one. She couldn’t stop laughing. She also told me that this was just a start and there is so much to know about parenting. She told me that little ones keep changing and not to worry too much. Somewhere inside me, I know all is well, but still I want to be very protective of what is mine. Though I know I am doing my best often, it is about those times when I want to sit back and relax and give her simple joy foods. 30 was a very crucial year for me. I began a whole new chapter in my life and felt totally lost at sea.

Somehow, I felt so good on my 31st birthday. People I love wished me and my day started with showers of blessings and loads of love. It wasn’t just the messages, it’s the love in them. I feel so blessed and decided not to stress on parenting anymore. Also, since my word of the year is Simplify, it is helping me in so many areas of my life, I am sure it would help me in parenting too. I would like to keep my parenting straight and simple. More on that soon.

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Blazing Fire

Jayanthy Govindarajan — Fri, 04 May 2018 03:46:00 +0000

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When we sit and talk,

It is like a blazing fire,

Rising to the ceiling,

Slowly burning down every worry,

Provoking tears of joy,

Hidden safely in a burdened heart.

Life showed us each other,

At the most unexpected times,

With a thousand doubts we started a journey,

With that ray of hope shining so bright,

Breaking our walls, we have survived.

Though we don’t make the perfect lemonades,

When life throws lemons at us,

I am glad we love the ones we make,

With a spoon of sugar for me

And a pinch of salt for you,

Making us understand our differences in the easiest way.

Life is tough with you,

Since you make me strive harder,

By kicking up my sweetly sleeping soul,

With your sweet yet determined words,

That push me slowly out of my comfort zone,

And rise up to who I really want to be!

Thanking you is the hardest thing to do,

For no one can hate you and love you as much as I do,

In all the years I have known you,

And for many more that is to come,

I will be there by your side,

To annoy you and love you a bit more than what I already do!

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Best friends Forever

Jayanthy Govindarajan — Fri, 16 Mar 2018 01:43:00 +0000

You guys,
Are a sweet surprise,
You speak everything under the sun,
The bond you share is so much fun!

I wonder how you became friends,
Touchwood, I know this will last till the end,
How much you adore each other,
You guys are better than best brothers.

I know how much fun I make of you two,
I know you are each other’s go to,
You read each others eyes,
You two are a blessing in disguise.

The bond you share,
How much you care,
It is only fair that I say a prayer,
For this love to be always there.

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#WednesdayVerses: Shadow of our Love

Jayanthy Govindarajan — Fri, 16 Feb 2018 11:29:00 +0000

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Life today isn’t what it was

Before a couple of years,

With pain engulfing me,

Not knowing what the next turn is about to bring.

From being the confused soul

To becoming the firm believer,

I have been through it all,

To understand I belong with you!

We stayed away,

To know what it really means,

We walked away because

We didn’t want to hurt each other.

Though we knew it from the beginning,

We are meant to be,

We had been through enough,

To believe in this sweet ecstasy.

When we let things be,

And broke our walls,

We found each other,

And laughed at our choice.

We married with blessings from all,

A splendid surprise after a long haul,

As Man and Wife our journey began,

Enjoying each moment as much as we can.

Even as Life twists and turns,

And even now some words burn,

You and I walk together,

Making this is our package altogether.

The arrival of our bundle of joy,

Has made us laugh more and enjoy,

All her giggles and snuggles,

Is more than enough to make her our new Valentine.

Watching the shadow play in our room,

Moving forward and backward,

I am swaying to a song in my mind,

Thinking about our Love and our dance together!

Prompt: Shadow

Joining Vinay and Reema for #WednesdayVerses.

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A song for each season! #writebravely

Jayanthy Govindarajan — Sat, 28 Oct 2017 02:11:00 +0000

Music has a special place in our hearts. We have that special list of songs for all moods as well as mood swings. Either we dance to the tune we hear on a radio or for the tune inside our heads. At times, there’s some random song stuck on your head and keeps repeating itself ‘n’ times like a stuck tape recorder. Neither does it relate to the situation nor is it your favorite. It is just there the whole day or few hours and goes away!!

Personally, I love peppy ones. It does not just uplift me, it has changed many glum days into good mood days! It is also a stress buster. The best part about this variety is most are meaningless and kick-ass songs that makes us get up and shake our limbs. Like Aaluma Doluma!

There was one particular song that my sister and I kept as an alarm tone and also listened to it every morning religiously. We wake up dancing, sometimes even with our eyes closed. This song was our morning motivation! It is not just good to listen, but also a visual treat! It’s also the first five songs that I saw in my New Moto to check the quality of speakers and visual display. I am sure you will enjoy it too. Its Kattikida from Kaaki Sattai.

The first film we watched after marriage was Irumugan. Yes, that is again one of Vikram’s best movies. After that, until now, I am a fan of the song, Halena. Look at both of them, aren’t they so cute! This is now my go to song that changes my mood irrespective of the day. This was my stress buster during pregnancy!

There is one thing about Westlife that I adore. These guys set the standards for me about Love, and they set it high! Look at each one of them, their voice and their looks are enough to fall in Love with them. They were my teen love and it still continues! Just look at them. I love every album of theirs. Coast to Coast is a personal favorite. If it’s them, I will stay glued to the TV too. I remember watching their documentary and also crying when Brian McFadden left. *Heartbreak*

Most Tamil songs from the 40s till the 90s is my company during tough days. I hardly listened to melody, but that’s what helped me through my tough times and glum days. The meaning of Life is beautifully explained in the olden songs, and when we understand them they become golden memories. Kannadasan’s songs in TMS voice is the best combination. The age-old songs dedicated to God will make you feel his presence and take us to that temple itself.

After a tiring yesterday, I feel so much better writing about music today. It’s been quite a while since I listened to songs, but now and then these beats keep me going!

I would love to listen to your song list too!

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Terminal #WriteBravely

Jayanthy Govindarajan — Mon, 09 Oct 2017 14:36:00 +0000

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Two years had passed since Anjana left India for good. She had left because she wanted to run away from the chaos of her life. Her on-site opportunity was her only blessing. She had not shared her number with anyone. She just lived all by herself and spoke with family who spoke only because she called, not even once did they ask her anything else.

Today she was on her way to India. At the airport terminal she came to know about her delayed flight. She had ample time with nothing to do. Slowly thoughts crept in, as she sat down and thought about what to say when she goes back.

Just before two and a half years, her parents had arranged her wedding. She had to tell them she was in Love, but heavily single sided, waiting for Roshan. He was still not over his ex. To be more clear, his once-upon-a-time girlfriend loves to interfere very much in his life in the name of care. He couldn’t see the clear picture.

Roshan and Anjana were family friends who had always liked each other. Their lives took different turns when they fell in love for the first time. Yes, with other people. They both had a struggled relationship with their then partners. Anjana had felt better when she broke up, but Roshan’s girlfriend left him making him feel miserable. She made sure she stayed in touch only to poke him around saying how her married life is miserable now. Roshan was blind enough to believe her.

When they both met, they had spoken all about their lives so far. They both had a great time than they expected. Anjana liked Roshan, however, she wasn’t sure of a relationship. She didn’t want one. After almost a year of talking about everything under the sun, she felt like they were already in a relationship. Roshan felt lighter than ever. He slowly moved to the present. He was living his life without any regrets. However, his ex-girlfriend called him once in a while to talk to him. Gradually, he let her know about his new life and how he wanted to move on. Her pang of jealousy took over and she made it clear that she still misses him. He wasn’t ready to answer.

When Anjana came to know this, she decided for herself that he would go by her words. She told him how much she loves him and ran away without waiting for his answer. He tried calling her, but she never picked up. Her parents had introduced her to Amit, an Engineer, friends with a relative. The relative made sure her family accepted the prospect. When Anjana was on the edge with this alliance, she had no other choice, but to accept the On-site opportunity. The alliance had agreed to wait for two years. She hoped, he wouldn’t. They were so alike in the wrong things and she didn’t want to take this forward. She had already informed them she wasn’t interested. All ears went deaf to her words and all they ever bothered was about her first love failure, which they made sure was not conveyed to Amit & Family.

When she finally reached Chennai airport, her eyes wandered to meet Roshan, knowing he wouldn’t be there. To her shock, Amit welcomed her. She didn’t know what to say. Before she could ask for an excuse and move away, he had asked her to follow him. She felt annoyed with his behavior and turned away. She saw Roshan looking glum with a baby in his hand. His ex-girlfriend walked towards him with a wide smile. Anjana wasn’t just upset with what she saw, she made up her mind not to see him anymore.

Why did she have to see him? Why was he there anyway?

Questions flooded her mind with no answers. Amit took her to his car. He waved at the woman sitting inside the car and asked her to come out. He introduced her as Akshatha, his fiancée. Amidst her misery, this was such a huge relief. She congratulated them and finally asked why her parents had not come to pick her up. He asked her to get in, he had a story to tell her. He told her about everything that happened after she left.

Roshan had spoken with her parents after she left. He had told them that he was the reason behind her denials to her family’s request. He had gone there to ask them for acceptance. She couldn’t believe anything Amit had said. She was silent all the way home. Her parents were waiting eagerly to receive her. They were smiling at her. They called her in and asked her if she was really in love with Roshan. She just said, “Yes, but there is no point in talking about it now.”, knowing nothing is going to change what she saw at the airport. Though they had pre-booked an engagement hall, they had waited for her answer this time. They were so sure about her this time. Staying away makes parents understand their children better.

Roshan had spoken to his ex-girlfriend and asked if he can meet her with her family. She denied it upfront. This time, he had called her repeatedly and asked her what was going on? She agreed that her past was better than her present. He decided to meet her and share a few words. He had met her husband, introduced himself, cleared the air and closed their chapter. Her husband, a genuine person, had agreed to come to his wedding with his family and wished him goodness. He was at the airport to receive them when Anjana came.

Roshan had known, the only person who needs to know his Love was Anjana. She understood his glum face now. There was no denying her love for him. There was nothing more to stop her from loving him anymore. He had come to her home now. His glum face, waiting for an answer. She just ran and hugged him tight. They went hand in hand to the engagement hall.

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Resonance

Jayanthy Govindarajan — Wed, 17 Aug 2016 12:28:00 +0000

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A sense of calm flushing over me,

A sense of silence flushing over me,

A sense of nothingness making me feel free,

A sense of accomplishment making me feel light.

Like a ray of light that enters a broken window,

Like a raindrop on a parched land,

Like the freshly grown first leaf of a long planted sapling,

Like the first smile that spreads in seeing the person we love.

Like that first teardrop that comes out in joy,

Is this called HOPE? 🙂

Patience is the key to

many things in life, almost everything.

Before it is the sense of trust and commitment,

And above all is FAITH! 🙂

Excited, yet all I could do is SMILE! 🙂

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Exhausted Yet Happy

Jayanthy Govindarajan — Thu, 04 Aug 2016 19:18:00 +0000

Busy yet happy!

P.S: Though at one point it is annoying to think i am writing very little, on the other side, I know I am occupied in preparing for my wedding due in 2 weeks. Writing comforts me! Hence this post.

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What Is Life Without A Valuable Teardrop

Jayanthy Govindarajan — Sun, 24 Jul 2016 15:28:00 +0000

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Suddenly all the sad

songs was also about us,

The thought makes me smile now

and not cry anymore,

Maybe love is all about the finding oneself

in that depth of loneliness and

not just in the laughter and happiness,

Love is something that disillusions

us only to illusion life again,

Love defies time,

Love defies every dimension that exists,

Love is when everyone understands your sadness,

but not your silence..

Love is when you stand in front of God to pray for everyone,

but personally you do not have a prayer for yourself.

Love is that single teardrop from the corner of the eye

that comes when you are deeply missed,

Love is that broad smile that comes when I see you

that makes me forget

all the time spent alone.

#IndiSpire127 Post –

Human beings need someone in their life. At least a person to ask occasionally, how one feels now. What’s your say on it?

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Thankful Day 9

Jayanthy Govindarajan — Tue, 21 Jun 2016 11:49:00 +0000

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The bond with God is always there! 🙂

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