Glad to be Where I am Now

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My focus is slowly changing
From the world outside
To my world inside
I am glad to be where I am now.

I used to wonder why I complaint so much
I realize it now.
As I let my expectations grow
I have stopped doing my work
I was focused on getting,
I am glad to be where I am now.

I used to get angry for many things
I never liked it when people pointed out things at me
At times, I don’t give a damn
At others, I sit and let the points sink in
Though I have felt defensive about few
I truly accept when I am wrong
I am glad to be where I am now.

I used to plan a lot
And usually I am excited about my plans
When it comes to execution
I see I lack persuasion
When people ask me things
I change my plans to make them feel comfortable
Letting my plans die right in front of me.

Oh, all the compromises I made
I am glad to be where I am now.

I used to be excited about life,
I loved every day and always looked forward to it,
Now I feel it is completely out of order,
With nothing to look forward to,
Too mundane to do anything new,
Too tired to think anything new,
I am glad to be where I am now.

I am tired of listening to a thousand voices,
Always being expected to sweet coat things,
I am sick of overthinking what others might think,
I am fed up of pleasing the crowd,
Sucking away my energy,
Leaving me chaotic and adrift,
I am glad to be where I am.

I don’t give a damn anymore
I am just so much more,
I love the feeling of me
For, I am not looking for a knight to save me
But I am looking for a Sword to guard myself.

About Jayanthy Govindarajan

I share the reflections of my mind here as a mommy blogger. I share my parenting experiences and life experiences with gratitude.

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