On some days it is not easy to smile
With so many things clouding my mind
Infinite questions without any answers
Breaking the calm that I always wanted
Do I need to give me some more time to heal?
It breaks my being to have trusted some
Even as I know in my deepest instincts
Those are some of the finest lessons I learnt
Still, it hurts like the first time when I hear someone talk.
Do I need to give me some more time to heal?
I thought talking about it heals it quickly
But was only judged more for what I told
I don’t want to be told it’s already late
Or what is the reason to think about it often
Do I need to give me some more time to heal?
I am slowly back to my shell again
I have felt offended and vulnerable
When I talk about my hurts and pains
I have survived many nightmares all by myself
I know I deserve the time to heal.
While I learn to trust myself again
I think about the right and wrong I’ve done
I am not going to deny anything I have done
But accept them as my human flaws
So I can heal some day in a better way.
It is okay for me not to be available always
To sit back and take time to respond
It is okay for me to sit back and see
That things still happen without me
Just the way it should be.
I am coming to terms with unresolved conflicts,
I am able to understand everything takes its own time,
Sometimes hours, days or years to heal,
It really doesn’t matter how long,
As far as I am healing beautifully.
Healing is only effective when we give ourselves the time for it to work. It is an inside job and we all have that courage and strength to heal ourselves, though sometimes we have to dig a little to find it.
True Shilpa! I have finally understood that I need to work on myself irrespective of what happens!! 🙂
The last stanza was beautiful. It’s okay to take your time to heal. There is no set time to heal and we don’t need anyone to say that it’s time to move on, because it will happen as we begin to heal gently.
Lovely poem, Jayanthy.
Thanks a lot Vinitha for dropping by! It’s lovely to have you here! Yes, we all take our own time to heal beautifully.
Healing takes place, but at its own pace. Sometimes, we wonder if we will ever heal from certain wounds, but we do. All we need to do is leave it to the Universe and to Time, trust them to do their best, and trust ourselves to get healed.
Loved this poem, Jaya!
I hear you Shilpa! Some of my very own doubts about healing actually! I wish I leave it to Universe and Time to treat them in a good way! Thanks a lot Shilpa! <3
Healing takes its own time and space. Lovely lines, Jayanthy.
Thanks a lot Damayanti!! It’s my pleasure indeed to have you read mine! <3
very nice beautiful lines keep writing