Rainbow feels a lot closer to heart for all of us. It brings with it hope and revival after glumness. I am a strong believer of nature’s symbols and always think about rainbows as nature’s showers of blessings upon me. There’s always something to smile about, be happy about. These tiny moments in life are true blessings that I want to feel thankful for.

Since each colour of the rainbow represents a strong emotion, I thought about bringing it all together to write something. At difficult times, message from the universe offers reassurance. I was in severe self-doubt that evening when I was back from work. When my family offered to go out for a walk even though the weather was windy outside. Had I chosen to sit down and sulk, I would not have had this experience in my life.

The walk brought in such a lovely evening of togetherness. It made me realize that challenges always lead to better changes within us. The beauty of family and nature was present fully that evening for me. At that minute, I felt very blessed.

I also read somewhere that rainbows represent a connection between physical and spiritual worlds. They calm you and help you to look forward to new beginnings, helping you feel that better days are coming soon.

For this moment, I strongly felt that I was in tune with my purpose. Even though I felt like a failure that day, seeing the rainbow made me feel that I was receiving an important message from the universe. It re-iterated everything that my husband told me before we walked out, this is an important moment in your life. Somehow it truly felt like a comforting message.

This rainbow is also close to my heart because it sent me the message to trust myself and stay strong. It narrated to me the importance of staying focussed, and speaking up is important when you really have to. It showed me the importance of building a strong foundation to who I am and just keep building on it. Patience and Silence are two key elements that I am working towards to build myself for my new dreams.

What’s your favourite rainbow memory?

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Every time I push a few boundaries
I wonder if I am doing it right
I don’t know to stand by it
That’s my absolute fright.

Standing alone doesn’t scare me,
I’ve been doing it a long time now
Still, when a soul is kind,
I take the liberty to share my mind.

That’s my scary bit
My overwhelm gives a fit
Now I’m aware of my flaw
I must learn to withdraw.

Listening never hurt anyone
It’s a way of choosing kind
Just respect thoughts and let them be
Sadness must be felt before it is healed.

When I learn to respect my boundaries
I learn to respect others boundaries better
That breaks a lot of expectations,
And brings the dear ones near.

We all have a journey together
Where we can stand by each other
Only when we learn to give due respect,
To the voices and the choices we make.

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Sometimes the blank page
pulls me to write a thousand words
Not knowing where to stop
As it flows on its own.

Yet, there are times
when there are so many things
I want to write about
But, it is far behind somewhere.

Cloudy and blurred
with no intention to move
I sit and stare at a blank page
Picking hard at that one thing for a clue.

Even as one hundred chores wait
I wait for something to flow out
To empty the chaos
To breathe in some freshness.

Even as the little one calls me to play
I cannot concentrate on what she says
Until I let out this bizarre feeling
Out of my mind.

As I put my confusion into words
Things finally take a different stride
Nothing becomes something
That I can put a name to.

Just becoming aware of my mind
Is all that I need, maybe.
I smile as I understand this
As words flow once again.

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It still hurts everywhere
To think you are no more
It’s been Five years,
Still, it’s like yesterday.

There is no one like you,
I’m not looking for anyone like you,
It is with you,
My heart stays forever.

Your laughter fills my soul,
Your smiling face is often a reminder,
Of how small problems can be,
You’re the best we’ve ever had!

You made me feel,
So special about myself,
My bundle of positivity,
You just give everyone the right kick!

I often think that
Our long conversations
Was a blessing in disguise
For once, I spent the time right.

These kind of memories
Not only make me happy
But reminds me of you
And in my heart that stays!

I miss you, darling. We all miss you! ❤️

This is a tribute to one of the sweetest and kindest soul I know. We lost my dear friend on April 28, 2016. I wrote this for her birthday on November 10, 2020.

Sangeetha is the twin sister of Saranya Ramachandran. These brats are the twins of my school teacher. I witnessed the charm of Sangeetha for a whole year in 12th when we were partners sitting next to each other.

I’ve adored her forever and will always. She is my eternal friend for whom I have deep respect. She lived in the moment and laughed like there is no tomorrow. I still remember the hours we spent talking two weeks before she passed away.

We all miss you with all our deepest hearts, Sangee. ♥️

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These 3 words
Make sense now.
I choose to surrender
After the big mess up.

I passed on my distress
Without realizing the stress
I was throwing at someone,
Who chose to listen.

I peered into someone’s life
Worst than an intruder,
Without even realizing,
I am not needed there.

I have yelled, been rude,
Crossed my borders,
Shared an unwanted opinion,
An unwanted line.

“Be sympathetic, be kind”
I really thought I was
Until I shared a few words,
With less understanding of someone’s choice.

A lot of my wounds
Make no sense to me now
I’d know if I observe myself,
That I triggered them on my own.

The many baggage I held so long
Need to be buried deep down
It brings nothing, but more hatred
And breaks me down.

I stand up and apologize,
To those who faced the wrath
Of my constant complaints,
As I realize I messed up.

I was trying hard to make a mark,
But all hell broke loose,
I have lost it all,
In the process of proving I’m true.

I don’t know right from wrong now,
Oh, my best opinion is NO opinion now,
I might choose that corner,
To mind my own business.

After too much of talking,
Here comes the silence,
That could teach me,
To smile and to be kind.

Now that I clearly know,
I messed up,
I choose to stay silent,
To make my words count.

*NOTE:*
I am just thinking loud on my blog. I am in good mental health, I just woke up to bearing the weight of being told that I mess up all the time.

Looks like, I have consciously started to mess up things now. I had not set boundaries on my private space or personal life. It has just been up there for view, which has led me to unconsciously graze on others private space. I am a strong advocate of SPEAK OUT LOUD, but I realised I have forgotten the space where SILENCE is needed.

Out of concern, I have constantly asked people to share their thoughts thinking there might be a problem. However, the real problem had existed in me, since I used to bottle up my emotions earlier. Now I learned to share better, but I guess that fear in me that someone might need help in sharing their thoughts hasn’t left. Hence, this post is a reminder for me to NOT to push others boundaries unnecessarily.

This is my reminder to consciously stay awake and learn to be empathetic to myself and others. To accept privacy in my life and respect it in others life.

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When I stepped on the fluffy white
I glowed at what’s in sight.
Sheets of snow filled everywhere
What an entry into this year.

Snow melts on living creatures
Yet, it covers those that are dead.
Doubts and fears evaporate,
As these flakes melted on my face.

When I bent and picked up
My first ball of snow
I was excited as a little girl
I forgot how ouchy my hands felt.

When you go in the snow
Make sure you wear the things below
Go with the flow
So you have a good show!

A scarf and a hat,
Some warm socks and boots,
That jacket and gloves,
Mittens for little ones!

Building a snowman
A game of snowballl
Laughter and joy in the snow
Stays as pleasant memories though!

After all the play in the snow,
A runny nose, a sneeze and a frostbite
Are just the right memories
While in a warm tub!

Make the best while the snow lasts
When you wake in the morning
Your snowman would have melted
There might be no trace of snow!

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What do you want to know about me?
What about me will please thee?
I am another normal human being,
With flaws and scars of my own.

Yes, I am not the same everyday,
I learn and change every moment,
I am working towards getting a bit better,
Better than my yesterdays in many ways!

I am not here to impress anyone,
Nor am I here to compromise myself for anyone,
I am learning to be me,
The only way for me to be!

It’s okay if you don’t like me,
It is alright to compete too,
I will give you the benefit of doubt,
To learn for yourself who I am!

I am happy with people,
But I am happy when alone too,
Do not mistake my silence for dislike,
I like to think a lot and talk to myself.

As nuts as I may seem,
I am happy to be me,
Very much indeed as I age,
I love my own company!

I trust my own lot,
I have my own tribe,
Who do not judge me for my words,
But know my heart!

I love to talk to new people,
I still talk my mind out there,
If you find it offensive,
I’m okay to stay away!

Never will I apologise for being me,
Neither will I bother about breaking ties,
For I strongly believe it is better to stay alone,
Than in a toxic company!

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I wanted to write about
A thousand different things the week
I actually started with prose
Instead I am now writing poetry.

I wanted to write about
How I struggle and drain myself fully
So I could sleep exhausted every night
But I’m left with emptiness instead.

I wanted to write about
How playing a game(even) in my mobile
Recharges my mind, releases tension,
And makes me productive than routine days.

I wanted to write about
How writing at random in a notebook
Makes me feel so much better
Than explaining myself to everyone.

I wanted to write about
What my daughter learns everyday
And what she makes me learn from her
As I see the world through her eyes.

I wanted to write about
What is it like to have a daughter
And why I feel blessed to have
someone so little yet so strong in my life.

I wanted to write about
How much I miss the three of us being together
Even though I am waiting to travel again
Sooner than later.

I wanted to write about
How some friends share posts right from their heart
But think those are silly on their blog
I tell you here, I love most of those posts.

I wanted to write about
Tips and tricks I’m learning about parenting
About why it will take me a lifetime to master it
Still, carry on being a work in progress parent.

I wanted to write about
How mad I was after reading Eleanor Oliphant
How silent I had become
And wanted to read no other book for sometime.

I wanted to write about
Taking a social media break
To spend some personal time on my blog
And write random stuff I’ve always wanted to.

I wanted to write about
How happy I am since it’s finally raining in Chennai
After being roasted for three long years
Since the 2015 floods.

I wanted to write about
A thousand different things this week
While I keep writing more about it
I would love to know what you wrote this week.

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A fun filled ride,
Sad at one, happy at another,
Crazy at many, commanding at some,
A mad rush overall.

Life’s just that,
Some understand, many misunderstand,
Some guide us to betterment, whereas a few to bitter,
Maddening moments are many.

Right before us runs the show,
We laugh a lot and cry about,
At times we are left with a thought,
That would change us roundabout.

Life’s just that,
We see it in a different light,
Yet, there’s so much more to it,
That we learn as years pass by.

Life’s just that,
No one will choose to live it for you,
Unless you decide to do it for you,
That maddening journey is all yours now and forever.

Life’s just that,
No stanza here match with one another,
Yet, all this is what makes this poem,
Not rhyming, but tuned and synched.

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I tamed myself to be liked,
I tamed myself to be loved,
I tamed myself to stay with the crowd,
I laugh at myself for being a fool.

I’ve hurt myself more than you could,
I’ve lied to myself more than anyone could,
I’ve berated myself to be with you,
I am laughing at myself for being a fool.

I didn’t trust my gut enough,
I didn’t trust myself enough,
I didn’t want to be alone,
I am laughing at myself for being a fool.

Truth be told, life has not let me down,
It showed me where I belong.
I am the wildflower that grows untamed,
I realized as I untied the knot that choked me!

Wild and gloriously confident again
I am more of me than I’ve ever been,
From now on you’ll see more of me
Mischief managed with a spark and a smile!

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